Saturday, December 5, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
SHUT UP !!
*sigh* so when i get a point of view that i don't wanna hear, i jump straight into defense mode. .which was the case EARLY this morning. .first of all, im not a morning person ! i let that go cuz this is someone i care about. .i couldn't do anything but sit on the phone and take it because i didn't want him thinking my defense mode was putting a wall up to {what he calls} the obvious. .honestly, im just a naturally argumentative person && that has always been my downfall. .i will admit, i DON'T like hearing someone on the outside telling me the truth, especially if im in avoidance of it.
long story short, it was my current boyfriend telling me that im not over my ex-boyfriend. .which i TOTALLY am !
the funny thing was that im listening to this account of why he thinks so, but i have nothing to argue back. .it was as if. .NO, I LOST !
ha. .thats another problem that i have, i can't take criticism. .i always have to argue my point && feel like i won or had the last word. .but in this case, i didn't. .after he finished making his point though, he told me how he felt about me and went back to normal conversation.
what i loved though, was that during the conversation {WELL WHILE HE WAS TALKING, CUZ HE WAS THE DOMINANT ONE} he continued to tell me "babe, this is me telling you this as a man, and NOT as your man". .he has grown to become a confidant, a friend, and a lover. we can always talk about anything && everything. .@ that point though, i felt that he called my bluff and all i wanted to do was tell him to SHUT UP ! but he was right and i was wrong && after he made me see that. .
I WAS PISSED !!!
but now that im letting it out this CONSTRUCTIVE way, i feel better. .AS MUCH AS I WANNA CALL HIM BACK TO ARGUE MY POINT, IT KINDA JUST FURTHERS HIS POINT && I NEED TO GET OVER IT. .
wooooooooooo sahhhhhhhhhh. .IM OVER IT ! THANKS FOR LISTNIN. .nowwwwww
With Love,
Riyya Ai'sha
Laughs of the Day. .
these are just some of the things that had me dyyyyyinnnng. .remember:
LAUGHTER IS MEDICINE FOR THE SOUL !
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Tiger "Cheetah" Woods
I think the name fits. .l0l, so anyway its outrageous that ppl are quick to judge this man. .he's 2 things: a MAN {they're programmed to cheat}, && a human, who should only be judged by his Maker ! Honestly, I'm not in the least bit concerned with this topic but since it seems to be the buzz, why the heck not test the waters ? First of all, I don't think he handled it like a black man. .the first thing he said when he called && left the vm on this chicks phone is "hey its tiger" !!! C'mon *throws hands in the air* DEAD GIVAWAY TIGERRRR ! Sheesh. .&& instead of him TELLING her to take her name off the vm, he's politely ASKING her to do so. .that's given the obvious that he prob bought her a bunch of shit. .&& gave her money on top of it ! DEMAND HER TIGER, THAT'S THE G-CODE. .if you had done it right, seeing that you have all that money, she would have a private cell phone just for you. .
Look @ me tryna show him the g-code, I should be ashamed of myself. .but honestly I'm not !
2 words for you Tiger
Swag 101. .that's all I'm saying
With Love,
Riyya Ai'sha
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My 23rd Birthday
January 17th 2010
this birthday is kinda bittersweet. .i just can't help but feel like im getting old {ESPECIALLY BECAUSE I AM !} ALLS I KNOW IS. .IM GETTING EXACTLY WHAT I WANT THIS TIME AROUND. .of course i want to be with my family && my lovely {getting too big for her own good} daughter. .&& end up doing something nice and intimate with my bf. .im still tryna figure out what he has up his sleeve, cuz like for the past 2 weeks all i been talking about is my birthday. .l0l. .so by now if he hasn't gotten my hints then pssshhh idk. .but everytime i mention something ITS BIG. .so im thinking in the back of his head, he's thinking "this b**** is outta her mind" hahaha. .but so what !
you know what. .im gonna post my wishlist && that is all
With Love,
Riyya Ai'sha
Falling. .
&& so this pic describes whats happening to me in the current relationship im in. .
i haven't felt this way in a long time. .my last boyfriend lasted for 6 years && it was really hard for me to get comfortable with ANYONE !
but i realized that i was looking for love. .the same feeling that i had before, that feeling of being wanted && that was not at all what i was finding. .so i had to stop looking and start loving myself
then here he comes. .not like the rest {NOTHING LIKE THE REST}, i could hear the genuineness in his voice, i watched him look in my eyes and not my breast or my butt, which was like a breath of fresh air. .&& this has been the first person to make me comfortable around him. .we laugh like best friends, we can talk about ANYTHING {good or bad}, we hang out && he's become like my close friend. .hence why i am falling
Thanks for listening. .
With Love,
Riyya Ai'sha
Bad Girls Club
i was not even going to engage in this show until EVERYONE started tweeting about it. .then of course i had to see what the buzz was about && HONEYYYYY im glad i did. .the 1st episode had enough drama from Natalie {rumored to be hollywoods "it" girl} for the whole cast ! personally with that face of hers, her best bet is to lay low. .BUT THIS IS BAD GIRLS CLUB, NOT CHARM SCHOOL ! which, by the way, wouldn't be a bad idea after this goes off. .
can't elaborate much on the season @ all yet but ohhhh. .stay tuned for those posts ! you will laugh. .
belee dat !
With Love,
Riyya Ai'sha
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Inconsistence. .
smh @ me. .like i don't really know why i have taken this 5 and a half month hiatus, but i have soooo much to talk about. .&& really i've been wanting to put all this stuff on paper but, you know how it can get. .ANYWAYYYSSSSSS, after my fingers started cramping from writing in this marble notebook that i bought, i realized "how much easier would this be if i were typing" and that was back in july l0l ! but i know exactly what my problem is: i often look for praise in my work. .it's been that way since i was a child. .get good grades, PRAISE ! but as an adult i have to learn that i should not be looking for praise and acceptance in what I love to do. .i don't need a million followers on my blog && comments on each blog. .that is also why i have the counter at the top. .to watch and see how many ppl have come to read what i have to say. .i wanna learn to be consistent, even with no results or feedback. .im the same girl who would workout for a week, not see change, && just STOP !
well, inconsistent Riyya is gone && i am gonna try to continue to do what i do best !
by the way, THIS POST PROBABLY MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE TO YOU but all my feelings came out exactly the way i wanted them to. .so thanks for bearing with me through this one. .
With Love,
Riyya Ai'sha
