Inconsistence. .

smh @ me. .like i don't really know why i have taken this 5 and a half month hiatus, but i have soooo much to talk about. .&& really i've been wanting to put all this stuff on paper but, you know how it can get. .ANYWAYYYSSSSSS, after my fingers started cramping from writing in this marble notebook that i bought, i realized "how much easier would this be if i were typing" and that was back in july l0l ! but i know exactly what my problem is: i often look for praise in my work. .it's been that way since i was a child. .get good grades, PRAISE ! but as an adult i have to learn that i should not be looking for praise and acceptance in what I love to do. .i don't need a million followers on my blog && comments on each blog. .that is also why i have the counter at the top. .to watch and see how many ppl have come to read what i have to say. .i wanna learn to be consistent, even with no results or feedback. .im the same girl who would workout for a week, not see change, && just STOP !

well, inconsistent Riyya is gone && i am gonna try to continue to do what i do best !

by the way, THIS POST PROBABLY MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE TO YOU but all my feelings came out exactly the way i wanted them to. .so thanks for bearing with me through this one. .

With Love,
Riyya Ai'sha